mama always said

if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.

i had no idea i'd get such a big response from my last post. thank you to my friends and family for being so understanding of the purpose behind that blog. your support means more than you'll ever know. and to those who choose to remain anonymous in their awful comments, thank you for proving my point about how wretched the internet really is. in real life you have an identity, and therefore have to be accountable for the things you do and say. but here, you can say anything you want and not have to own up to it. i got a lot of comments about how much i was exaggerating, that i wasn't anything special and that nobody cared about what i had to say. why so many comments then? many comments were rude and really unnecessary, posted by people who didn't want to own up for any of their put-downs. i hope your harsh words made you feel important.

the last thing i wanted to do with that post was start "internet drama," but i guess more people read this blog than i had thought. i deleted the catty comments because i believe nonconstructive criticism, and altogether inappropriate put-downs, should be left back in junior high. i wrote the previous post for myself, not for you. those were emotions i was feeling at the time, and i felt the need to clear the air and put things in perspective. for myself. i was in no way trying to "call people out," and it's really upsetting to see that so many had misinterpreted what i was trying to say in that post.

i created this blog to share my life with the people i care about. i've said time and time again that i'm away from home, and often use this blog as a way to communicate with my friends and family about whats going on in my life. its their opinions that really matter to me, not the ones of people who chose to say harsh things and then not own up to them. i understand that there will always be criticism of the things i say, do or create, its just unfortunate that some choose to be petty and hurtful instead of constructive. but like i said, i have more than enough support from those out there who truly know and love me.

on a much much brighter note, i am so happy to have gotten a chance to spend time with those people these last few weeks. this holiday season was by far the best yet. i've never felt so close to the people i care about. thank you all for making this break the most memorable one yet.

on monday i go back to school. new classes, new schedule, new beginnings. 2008 was great, but i can already tell that 2009 will be even better. here's to learning, loving, and laughing.