so i'm back at home. being with my friends and family has been exactly what i needed. there is so much love here. hard times definitely make you appreciate the wonderful ones. putting things into perspective is what i've been trying to accomplish, and i think i'm getting there. it is fine, everything is fine. life goes on and everything is getting back to normal. i knew all along what was best for me, and now that it's finally in motion its scary, but i know everything will turn out. i am very aware. more aware than i've been in a long time. i finished my painting, and i think i'll keep it.